Here's where the ultimate high of the week comes in, as you've read I've been slacking on my posts because I've been applying to Graduate School, well I GOT IN!!!! My top choice school, The University of Oregon, sent me an early notification email and the first word is Congratulations! I was floored, I didn't know whether to cry or scream or stare in disbelief at the computer screen, I may have actually done all 3 I can't recall. I so needed this news this week to lift me out of my funk and look forward again.
This past year has been an incredibly painful one for me and I have at times not known how to feel about the future. I have made choices on where I've gone and what I've done more so out of a need to get away. People try very hard to runaway from their lives and reality. I in many ways went to Alaska and to Colorado to runaway from a very painful breakup. However I knew that no matter where I went it would be waiting for me when I got there. That's the thing, you can run as far and as fast as you want but life will always beat you to your destination. I feel as though I've faced my reality and what has transpired. I'm not totally over it yet but I'm on my way. I am so happy to be accepted into a Graduate School program I can't even put it into words. I feel like now I am moving on with my life in the direction I want to be going. I worked hard to get to this place and I'm going to enjoy it!
I know this doesn't have much to do with my marathon training but it's one of those things that has really affected my training. I had an easy run yesterday, 3.5 miles and even though I didn't get tired during it I walked more than I normally would. The only reason I did was because my mind was preoccupied with what had happened that week. I was in someways reliving some very painful parts of this last year. I allowed worry to get in and distract me. I feel a huge weight lifted, I have something to look forward to past the marathon and a new adventure ahead of me.
I feel recommitted to the marathon too. Like, "Ok now let's get down to business!" So tomorrow I am going to go for my 8 mile run, it'll be the longest I've ever done again so wish me luck and say your prayers!